Whole Heartedly & Vulnerably

Hello all! Talking about prayer tonight.
I was reading Psalm today with my lovely sister in law, Raemie, and we just talked about how we loved David's personality in this book. He's so real and raw with God. To me, he's such a great example of being vulnerable. David knew he couldn't do anything without God, so he doesn't sugar coat his prayers. Reading Psalm 5, I love how David is talking with God.
"O Lord, hear me as I pray; pay attention to my groaning. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for I pray to no one but you. Listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly." Psalm 5:1-3

I love these verses so much because its relatable to me, "...pay attention to my groaning...", I mean that's pretty real. David is not holding back from God how he feels. I know that for myself sometimes I'm either dumping my wants or problems in my prayers, thinking "me, me, me", or I'm holding back...half heartedly praying thanks and not truly and vulnerably praising my God. I want to be real with God, and I know that He wants that from me.

But even better, I want to challenge myself to commitedly pray, whether it's wants/desires or thanks, & know that God will answer.....in His timing. "Each morning I bring my requests to you and wait expectantly." So, for anyone that knows me, they know that I am pretty patient. By no means am I perfect...but I can say that patience is something that I do try and practice (most of the time). (; But for some reason, when it comes to praying...I have a hard time waiting for God's timing. Praying to Him and then waiting...listening earnestly and expectantly....yeah not my strong suit!

So, I'm challenging myself to pray vulnerably and fully from my heart, whether it's prayers of thanks or prayers of wants/desires. Also, I'm challenging myself to pray & wait....quieting myself to hear God clearly when the time is right, however short or long that may be.

Boy....this will definitely be a growing time for me (:

"O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water." Psalm 63:1